Thursday, May 28, 2009

Getting to know.... me!

Since I'm pretty new to the ALI community I haven't been tagged, but in celebration of the last day of ICLW this month I wanted to share a little bit about me:

Eight things I am looking forward to:
Trip to France
Eventually having a healthy pregnancy and baby
Margaritas with coworker buddies
Hiking with my dogs
Tonight's ice cream
Sleeping in on Sunday
Taking myself out for coffee tomorrow

Eight things I did yesterday:
Spent 7 hours in a meeting
Went for a walk (twice!)
Got a massage
Came home to a delicious dinner prepared by my mother-in-law
Discovered that said MIL had re-shopped after refusing to grocery shop with me (grr)
Spent some quality time laughing with my husband
Picked up travel books about France at the library
Played with a 3 month old

Eight things I wish I could do:
Run 10 miles
Speak French
Have a flat stomach
Go shopping without worrying about money
Quit my job (some days)
Bake the perfect pie crust
Help my brother more
Increase my patience

Eight shows I watch:
Unfortunately I can't complete this. Despite loving The Office I usually forget to watch it and while re-runs of Friends are some of my favorite things ever, well, I can hardly ever find them on network television (and we don't have cable).
Instead: Eight movies I love:
Life is Beautiful
Breakfast at Tiffany's
Pretty Woman
Napoleon Dynamite
Charlie & the Chocolate Factory (the old one)
Great Escape
Magnificent Seven

Eight favorite fruits:

Eight places I’d like to travel:
South of France (this summer!)
New Zealand
New Mexico (again and again and again)
Chicago (never really left the airport)
Idaho for river rafting

Eight places I’ve lived (no particular order):
Oregon (4 different houses)

Wednesday, May 27, 2009


I had high hopes for being a super ICLW participater and I certainly plan to finish strong, but two days of almost zero internet access (it was broken at home and I had all day meetings today) along with in-law craziness (really, 4 people and 4 dogs are too many for this house and my in-laws, while absolutely generous, hard-working and energetic people, are a bit much at times have led to me existing at the margins of ICLW.
Here's to hoping I'll do some more posting soon!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

ICLW- What a great idea!

I'm really enjoying ICLW, I'm discovering so many lovely blogs and kind people. Thank you all for visiting and for your comments! As you can see, my blog is still in its very early stages, but I have a lot to say so it should fill up with posts quickly!

This weekend is shaping up nicely. We took the dogs for a nice walk this morning and now I'm working on the laundry (vacation generates a lot of laundry, especially vacation in a hot and humid place!) and settling back in. On Thursday evening my husband's parents arrived for a visit, so the house is a bit louder and more chaotic than usual. They drive up from the deep south- which takes them about a week- so they stay for several weeks at a time. His dad is working on yard projects and such already, which is wonderful!

What are you reading lately? I'm getting three books from the library today and looking forward to them: American Wife by Curtis Sittenfeld, Schooled by Anisha Lakhani and Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen. Last week on vacation I read This Charming Man by Marian Keyes and The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd. This Charming Man was much more intense than other Marian Keyes novels I've read, but definitely a page-turner and in some ways an eye-opener. It deals with domestic violence which I haven't encountered much in fiction. I loved the Secret Life of Bees for so many reasons, but especially for the wonderful community of women and the rich depiction of life in the south.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Back from vacation

We got home from 10 days in Mexico late Tuesday night and I'm easing back into work this week. It'll be nice to have the three day weekend to catch up on laundry and settling back into home.

Having so much time to relax and rest and gaze at the beautiful ocean and the gorgeous sunsets was really good. It was also great from an IF and loss recovery perspective to get away from the internet, from home, from sad reminders and such. I didn't spend a bunch of time dwelling on the difficult months we've just been through, but it was very good for my mental health to have the space to sleep as long as I needed to and to just be. Now that we're back and my body is fully recovered I'm looking forward to increasing my level of fitness. April wasn't so great for me from a fitness perspective (well, and in many other ways too), so getting back to running and adding some yoga and hiking are on the agenda for the next days and weeks.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Notes to self

This week my mental state has been much better. It is so good to be home again and to settle into a normal routine. Looking forward to a vacation that will begin this weekend doesn't hurt either!

On Sunday morning my husband and I went for a run. It had been so long since I ran I was definitely doing a little more huffing and panting than usual, but it still felt good to be out there. Halfway through the run, however, we went up along the route I'd taken on a walk with a friend the day I got that first positive test back in March. At the top of the steps I started crying and couldn't stop for 10 minutes. At first I thought I was crying out of frustration with running and struggling to breathe properly (my husband had been urging me to inhale only through my nose and I had a hard time getting enough air that way and it made me grumpy), but it slowly dawned on me that there was more to it than simple frustration. When those moments surprise me I try to just experience them. There's something that feels really powerful and real about how the sadness pops up out of nowhere and reminds me of what I've been through. It reminds me to acknowledge that what we experienced was difficult and still quite recent and I'm actually grateful for that. At the same time it shows me that life is continuing to move forward and I'm getting better and stronger and more hopeful.

For those who might be concerned that I have been depriving myself of the occasional Starbucks indulgence there is no need to worry! In fact, just this morning I enjoyed a delicious cinnamon scone and a Caffe Misto (also known as a cafe au lait). However, I'm also looking for ways to reduce my caffeine consumption (I typically drink one caffeinated beverage a day) because even when I consume only a small amount of caffeine, if I skip a day or stick with decaf for a morning I end up with an afternoon headache and that's not fun at all. Maybe I'll ease back with half caf coffee or switch to tea and then reduce from there. Adding in more water and exercise certainly won't hurt either.

I spoke with the RE's office this morning. The doctor recommends that we try again on our own after a short wait and since the chemical pregnancy doesn't 'count' as a miscarriage technically he doesn't feel that further tests are recommended at this time aside from a post-ovulation progesterone check. I think I'll do that test in June. At the same time they'll check my thyroid level since my TSH has been a bit higher than desired and I am now on 25 mcg of thyroid replacement hormone. I'm not sure if we'll try again in June or wait until later, but it is rather nice to not be trying for a bit.