tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31895476444314506782024-03-19T04:05:27.924-07:00Busted Tube: Adventures in InfertilityBusted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.comBlogger69125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-1667480684009625812010-05-18T21:32:00.000-07:002010-05-18T21:35:32.425-07:00It really was real! Liliana Catherine was born on May 5th, weighing in at 8lbs 3 oz! She's a happy, healthy baby so far and managed to gain 17 oz in one week (her second week of life- she now weighs 9lbs 5oz) on breast milk alone!<br />Born via c-section after 20 hours of labor, she is worth every minute of worry and work that went into her conception, pregnancy and birth.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-81515538420262415912010-03-31T20:53:00.000-07:002010-03-31T20:56:04.011-07:00Still hereI'm still here and am checking in on several of you, though not commenting nearly enough! I'm almost 34 weeks along and can't quite believe it. We are continuing to hope it is really real and that things continue to go well! <br /><br />Best wishes to all of you out there in IF and pregnancy after IF land!Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-15649143191703927992010-01-23T12:20:00.000-08:002010-01-23T12:33:41.783-08:0024 weeks!I am so excited to be at 24 weeks! For us in the IF world, 24 weeks is a big deal because it marks viability- a 50-50 chance that the baby would survive if born now. Still not great odds, but so reassuring at the same time. For me, 24 weeks somehow has made me feel more relaxed about the pregnancy, it feels so much more real with baby kicks, knowing the doctors would do everything possible to save her and really looking pregnant. I was so excited this week when a stranger made a comment about me being pregnant! I imagine that most women would prefer that strangers not say anything about their condition (and I'm sure I don't want any rude remarks), but I loved having someone acknowledge my current state.<br /><br />I know things could still go wrong, but according to my midwife and every indication I have, things are going wonderfully well and I'm really enjoying it in a whole new way.<br />I've been to some prenatal yoga classes recently and that's been lovely- so neat to spend time with so many pregnant mamas at once! I'm hoping to go swimming or attend prenatal water exercise classes soon too. In perhaps one of the biggest developments, we've purchased crib sheets and they are due to arrive on Monday. We don't have a crib or anything, but one thing at a time, you know?Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-76088316355085949232009-12-27T11:00:00.000-08:002009-12-27T11:07:34.160-08:0020 weeksDepending on who you ask, 20 weeks has arrived either Friday, Saturday or today. According to the ultrasound I had on Monday (just a regular ol' mid-pregnancy u/s), my revised due date would be May 13 (the due date calculated with my RE is May 16) so everything is looking just perfect and my little one was weighing about 10 oz as of Monday. Two hemispheres in the brain, good midline structure in the brain, complete, healthy skull, four chambered heart, fluid in the belly as swallowing is being practiced, good looking legs and arms etc...<br /><br />Oh, and the baby is a tiny, healthy baby girl!<br />She kicked me 6 times in about 2 minutes this morning after a few sips of orange juice and I'm feeling more movement regularly, despite the anterior placenta that we got to see at the u/s too. The doctor measured my cervix and it was nice and long and closed so I'm hoping all continues to go well.<br /><br />We're definitely getting more and more attached to this pregnancy and baby (okay, so we're completely smitten) and hoping that we're lucky enough to have everything continue to go so well.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-45533509490249565602009-12-04T16:46:00.000-08:002009-12-04T16:48:00.467-08:00UpdateJust popping in to say that my husband and counselor have put me on a news & internet diet and my anxiety has shot back down! I'm feeling much better and all seems to be well (no more spotting and it has now been over a week) and plenty of good heart beat checks. I know things can always happen, but I also am trying to be better at realizing that I don't always get to control what happens and when. Oh, the letting go, it is a process!<br /><br />Thank you for your comments and support, it is greatly appreciated.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-14974909563638487762009-12-01T11:44:00.000-08:002009-12-01T12:05:27.326-08:00I know it has been ages since I posted. I've felt oddly caught between my good fortune and my on-going worries and just haven't figured out how to post what I want to say without sounding like I'm whining or spoiled or something unpleasant.<br />Today I'm drawn back here because I need the support of this community and hope that writing it down can help ease my fears. Okay, my irrational fears.<br /><br />I'm 16 weeks pregnant, isn't that wonderful? I even had a few weeks where my worrying got much better- from the first week of November until Thanksgiving, I was doing pretty well! On Thanksgiving afternoon I had a bit of blood tinged mucus and have been thrown back into the anxiety pit ever since. I called my doctor that day and she thought it was probably due to over-exertion (I'd been standing and rolling out pie crusts and hosting 14 people for the holiday). It didn't get worse or return and I've been fine ever since. Yesterday I had a prenatal visit and a quick ultrasound and all was well. I've been able to hear the heart beat with my doppler and it's a wonderful, if totally unreal, feeling! However, since Thursday, I've been completely, irrationally terrified that I might have cervical insufficiency or otherwise go into extremely pre-term labor and lose the baby and I don't know how to stop worrying!<br /><br />My doctor at the visit yesterday said that they'd check my cervical length at my ultrasound at 19 weeks (only 20 days from now!) and that there was no reason to suspect that I had any problem. I know she knows what she's doing, but I'm still not convinced. I'm pretty sure I'm just being irrational and nervous due to my history and extensive knowledge of what can go wrong. Nonetheless, I'm really struggling with how to get this fear under control, so I thought putting it out there might help.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-11114106526846021982009-10-29T17:29:00.000-07:002009-10-29T17:32:43.193-07:00More good newsYay! I had a great appointment today! <br />The baby could be seen via transabdominal ultrasound (though we spent some time with the dildocam too and got some great detail). The little one is wiggling up a storm and the heart is beating along happily and steadily. Everything looks perfect.<br />Thank you so much for your good wishes and thoughts, it is much appreciated.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-36207779858919345862009-10-29T14:25:00.000-07:002009-10-29T14:28:35.773-07:00NervousI have an appointment in 2 hours with my nurse-midwife and I've been nervous off and on for several days. Last week I felt so calm and excited, but somehow over the weekend the anxiety crept back in and I haven't been able to shake it. <br />I'm so thankful that we've made it this far. We've seen a healthy little one on the ultrasounds that we've had so far, that's wonderful!<br />Still, I'm scared that our luck might suddenly change. It sometimes does. I really, really hope that everything is still okay. Please send any good thoughts you have to spare my way.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-21594962550309556182009-10-22T14:07:00.000-07:002009-10-22T14:11:14.823-07:00Mini-MarshmallowsThis morning I stopped for a hot chocolate on my way to work. Perhaps not the healthiest beverage, I do love the cheap, hot-chocolate-in-a-machine-hot chocolate (though I like the fancier stuff too!) and today it was even better because there was a little container sitting near the machine full of mini-marshmallows!<br />I was delighted and surprised to find these little tiny reminders of childhood and winter days sitting there on the counter for the taking. I sprinkled them on my hot chocolate and spent the morning with a smile on my face. Sometimes it really is the little things.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-8094132295181934642009-10-21T11:57:00.000-07:002009-10-21T12:02:17.960-07:00Pregnancy updateI'm 10 weeks, 3 days today and feeling great. Yesterday I had my final ultrasound with the RE and everything looked wonderful- in fact, yesterday the baby was measuring at 10 weeks 3 days already which made me very happy. Hank and I got to see it wiggle and move the little hands and feet and were both in absolute giddy awe.<br />Next week I'll go in for my next prenatal visit. We're feeling really positive about all of this and hopeful that things will continue to go so well. I'm finding it a little bit hard to believe, especially because I continue to feel pretty normal. I am still getting up at night to pee 2-3 times and am wearing the bella band over my pants (which button, but barely so I opted not to bother).Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-55990924121019191542009-10-21T11:04:00.000-07:002009-10-21T11:57:44.816-07:00I have so much to say and there's lots I've been thinking about with regards to this blog and to the blogging community. I'm not sure I'll be able to articulate it properly today, but the infertilty & loss blogging community is full of such incredibly supportive, caring, smart and funny people. I feel so attached to it in many, many ways. However, as I'm moving into a new stage of my life, while certainly not leaving my experiences of loss and infertility behind, leaves me pondering how I will use this space and how I can offer support and receive support from people going through so many different experiences.<br />At times, the sadness of the stories I've read in the blogosphere has overwhelmed me and in the past months I've realized that I have to limit my exposure somewhat or else the sad stories begin to encroach on my mind and send me to very dark places and I know for my own mental and physical health that I have to distance myself a little. That's really, really hard because I don't want to distance myself from all of you very real people and your stories. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I will try to be there as much as I can for all of you who I value so much and that I hope you know that I'm deeply grateful for the support I've received from you over the course of this very difficult year.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-58709293982563093372009-10-11T18:34:00.000-07:002009-10-11T18:41:37.893-07:00MeMeOver The Top<br />I was tagged a while ago by BabyHungry (go give her a big hug, she could use one), and it's taken me forever to get to it, but it is a fun distraction! <br /><br />Rules<br /><br />1. You Can Only Use One Word!<br />2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers<br />3. Alert them that you have given them this award!<br />4. Have Fun!<br /><br />The Fun Part<br /><br />1. Where is your cell phone? table<br />2. Your hair? messy<br />3. Your mother? wonderful<br />4. Your father? kind<br />5. Your favorite food? cheese<br />6. Your dream last night? weird<br />7. Your favorite drink? water<br />8. Your dream/goal? healthy<br />9. What room are you in? hotel<br />10. Your hobby? blogs<br />11. Your fear? Miscarriage<br />12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? happy<br />13. Where were you last night? hotel<br />14. Something that you aren’t? skinny<br />15. Muffins? blueberry<br />16. Wish list item? Baby<br />17. Where did you grow up? newengland<br />18. Last thing you did? dinner<br />19. What are you wearing? bathrobe<br />20. Your TV? hgtv<br />21. Your pets? old<br />22. Friends? great<br />23. Your life? busy<br />24. Your mood? okay<br />25. Missing someone? husband<br />26. Vehicle? subaru<br />27. Something you’re not wearing? bra<br />28. Your favorite store? grocery<br />29. Your favorite color? blue<br />30. When was the last time you laughed? earlier<br />31. Last time you cried? yesterday<br />32. Your best friend? several!<br />33. One place that I go to over and over? work<br />34. One person who emails me regularly? students<br />35. Favorite place to eat? many<br /><br />I'm not up for tagging right now, but if you'd like to do this meme, please feel free!Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-7417368763215554862009-10-11T18:03:00.000-07:002009-10-11T18:15:24.604-07:00What else? Pregnancy mentioned.I didn't mean to disappear. It's been a busy few weeks and lately I've been caught up with work and now I'm on the other side of the country for business travel.<br />For a good week or so I didn't write anything because all I could think about and write about what how nervous and worried and anxious I was feeling, how unsure I was that things might really be okay. I'm still not sure, of course, how can anyone be sure? However, I am feeling much better, largely because of my great appointment with my nurse-midwife on Wednesday. I didn't know if she'd be able to reassure me at all, but not only did her presence & great listening skills help, but she was already planning to do an ultrasound so I got to see the good strong heartbeat again and see that the little tiny embryo had grown over the week since we'd seen the little one last. Everything was looking really good and the midwife said she puts my risk of miscarriage at 2%- it literally doesn't get any better than that!<br /><br />She also told me I wasn't allowed to worry about this, but I am a little anyway (but really, I feel SO much less worried). The embryo had grown over the 7 days since the last scan, but it measured only 6.4 mm larger than the last week. All the things I read say that embryos should grown 1 mm a day, which would put my little embryo a tiny bit smaller than it should be (less than a mm, but still, nervous me). I knew that if anyone would understand this worry you all would. Is it crazy to worry over a millimeter? Perhaps. Nonetheless, anyone feel like reassuring me on that front? <br /><br />Aside from that, I'm going to be super busy all week with work and then when I get back early next week I'll have my RE appointment at which point I'll hope to be done with that office for a good long while (they're fantastic, don't get me wrong, but I'll be okay being done, I sure hope I am!) and we'll get to see what's going on inside again!Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-57447079122508605642009-09-29T14:02:00.000-07:002009-09-29T14:12:50.719-07:00Pregnancy metioned, 7 weeks 3 daysThe news is good! So good!<br />Heartbeat was 163 and the little embryo is completely average sized and growing perfectly from what the doctor could tell. He printed out some fantastic little grainy pictures for us and is going to have us come back one more time, but I should also go ahead and make an OB appointment, at least that's what I got from our conversation. <br />When I asked he said the risk of miscarriage at this point was 'definitely under 10% and probably under 5%'- not bad, right? Not perfect, but then again when is risk ever at 0%?<br />We're absolutely thrilled.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-28173281033025691832009-09-29T12:33:00.000-07:002009-09-29T12:35:30.683-07:00I'm leaving now for my ultrasound. <br />Nervous, but hopeful. Oh, I really, really hope that things are going well and we get to leave the office in good spirits with a healthy embryo tucked safely inside.<br />Please send good thoughts, it helps to know you're out there.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-83380586783935682602009-09-26T21:21:00.000-07:002009-09-26T21:33:29.842-07:00What weekend?My business trip started Wednesday afternoon at the end of the work day and the business part will end tomorrow around 5pm. Then it is back to work on Tuesday (I'll have Monday to spend with my mom and grandpa and to fly home). Working straight thru the weekend is tough and my days have been long. However, there are two excellent upsides: I barely have time to worry and I get to meet really interesting people.<br />I'll also appreciate next weekend all that much more since it will be my only one until the end of October! <br /><br />Boob Watch Fall 2009 continues: Definitely sore again, though it does come and go a bit. Still fuller and a bit denser and nipple tenderness continues to be present, though not as badly as it was initially (which is really good, cause that HURT!).<br />Again, who knows... but I do hope.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-67144398061336825402009-09-23T22:24:00.000-07:002009-09-23T22:32:31.300-07:00TravelingIt's been a very, very long day so you'll have to forgive me for my slacker participation in ICLW. I'll be back in full force tomorrow!<br />After flying into San Francisco I had a white knuckled drive up to Marin County due to the dark, my crappy directions and a rental car that probably will live on in memory as the worst rental car I've experienced in 4+ years of business travel. It has no power door locks and no power windows and it smells like a chemical factory (I think it is just cleaning product, but EWWW! I drove with the window rolled down so I wouldn't be poisoned).<br />At least today I've been distracted and therefore not as worried. I know there's nothing I can do either way and I know the chances are good that everything's fine. Many of you reminded me that the worry comes with the territory and that's absolutely right. I'm just going to have to deal with it as best I can- sometimes that might be freaking out and asking the internet for help, but hopefully most of the time that will mean taking care of myself and listening to good music, reading good books and enjoying all the good things in life. One day at a time.<br /><br />Boob Watch Fall 2009: While they were less tender yesterday they were still achy during the night last night and still feel fuller (and veiny!). Today they were off & on tender with slightly more nipple soreness than yesterday. Right now they just feel a little bit fuller than usual. I guess that means the symptoms haven't 'vanished', but it probably also means 'oh right, I'm on progesterone supplements!'. Who knows, just another great mystery of life, I guess.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-91940709358651152352009-09-22T11:38:00.001-07:002009-09-22T11:47:26.677-07:00Still worriedI don't know if I just have an overactive imagination or if I'm experiencing doctor appointment/reassurance withdrawal, but I'm having one of those nervous days today.<br />We had a great appointment on Friday and things definitely looked good. Today though, I am worried. My breasts aren't so sore today. They were sore and achy overnight, but once getting up this morning I haven't noticed much (and believe me, I've been checking). I thought my symptoms would be increasing here in week 6, but aside from a little breakout, not so much. Am I anxious because I have reason to be or because I'm getting ready to go on a trip and I'm generally concerned about my luck with regard to pregnancy? <br />Either way, today isn't feeling fun.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-19185911210963223252009-09-21T18:16:00.000-07:002009-09-21T18:21:58.958-07:00ICLWWelcome ICLWers! I had a great time during my last round of participation in ICLW and made some new friends and found some great new blogs. I hope this is another week of fun!<br /><br />A tiny bit about me- currently 6 weeks pregnant after a miscarriage and a chemical pregnancy earlier this year and therefore constantly concerned that this pregnancy might not last. It's going pretty well so far, but I'm pretty good at worrying anyway. My husband, who I call Hank for the purposes of this blog, is a darling man and a computer geek. We live in the Northwest and love it here, especially this time of year! We both work too much, but like to take vacations and enjoy spending time at home or in our neighborhood with our dogs and friends.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-90291292545979429402009-09-18T15:28:00.000-07:002009-09-18T15:38:10.803-07:00UltrasoundThe ultrasound was scheduled for 2:15 this afternoon, but they didn't even take me back until 2:20 or so. I was not a patient patient... Finally, the doctor joined us at 2:40ish and it was time for another encounter with the dildocam.<br /><br />Today, finally, was the ultrasound we've been wishing for over the past months.<br />Today we saw a tiny little embryo (& a teeny tiny little flicker) nestled inside a healthy gestational sac, implanted in just the right spot. The doctor told us he thinks everything looks good and that this will be a good pregnancy for us. I certainly hope he is right!<br />Today is a good day. Thank you for helping me get here.<br /><br />The next ultrasound is scheduled for Tuesday, September 29 and, if all continues to go well, I'll be 7+ weeks along by then. Next on my agenda? Chilling out for a bit, enjoying the moment and getting some flu shots.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-19646117162300691712009-09-17T12:50:00.000-07:002009-09-17T13:06:46.399-07:00WaitingWe've made it to now, a little over 24 hours before the first ultrasound, for that I am so thankful.<br />I'm hoping and wishing and praying for good results. I know it is still so early we might not be able to see much, but perhaps <span style="font-style:italic;">just maybe</span> we'll be able to see a tiny little heartbeat. I do feel lucky to have even made it this far.<br /><br />Thank you for waiting with me, for hoping with me and for sending good thoughts this way.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-5577204501535400962009-09-15T08:59:00.001-07:002009-09-15T09:13:20.734-07:00pregnancy mentioned again...I rescheduled the ultrasound for Friday. <br />This means that if we get good news (and there's every reason to think we will!) we have all weekend to celebrate! <br />It also means that if the results aren't so great we'll have some time to figure out what happens next. There isn't really a question of me re-scheduling the business trip, but my experience with a miscarriage on a business trip last spring was so difficult both physically and emotionally that I really want to avoid that scenario if at all possible. Hopefully there will be no reason to worry about that, but if there is we'll have some time to make a plan. There seemed to be concern about me 'planning life around ttc' and I'm not quite sure what y'all meant... I'm not 'trying' right now, just hoping that I don't have to go through a miscarriage in a hotel room far from my support system (and ideally not at all), which seems pretty practical to me!<br /><br />Aside from wishing I had some more symptoms, the week is going well. It's also tough to tell what is brought on by my body and what's just a result of the progesterone supplementation. I'm feeling optimistic and hopeful despite trying to prepare myself in case it doesn't work out- that's how I cope with things, always feeling better if I know how I'll get through it if bad things happen.<br /><br />Ultrasound in 3 days!Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-61208565243716124692009-09-14T11:01:00.000-07:002009-09-14T11:19:35.577-07:00Pregnancy Mentioned/ 5w3dWow! I made <a href="http://lostandfoundandconnectionsabound.blogspot.com/">LFCA</a>!<br />It was a good, mellow weekend. We worked on house projects and grocery shopped and watched a couple of movies. The weather was gorgeous and the dogs got some nice walks out of it.<br /><br />After Friday's good beta I managed to stay pretty calm and stress-free most of the weekend. There were ups and downs, I'm always finding ways of worrying that my breasts aren't as sore as they were the day before etc... but mostly I was fine. I'm not having morning sickness so far, though I did have a bout of dizziness this morning and I absolutely couldn't eat the banana I brought along for breakfast in the car. It's hard to tell how much of it is mental though.<br /><br />The ultrasound is currently scheduled for Monday, September 21st. I will be 6 weeks 3 days. If all goes well (and there's no reason it won't, but still, Grade-A-Worrywort over here!) we'll see a heartbeat and I'll be over the moon thrilled. One of my big concerns is the timing, I leave on a business trip on the 23rd and if there's one thing I'm terrified of after my last experience, it is having a miscarriage on a business trip. I hope everything looks wonderful at the ultrasound, but if it doesn't there isn't much time to deal with it before I have to leave. <br />What would you do?Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-1312821587963186342009-09-11T15:05:00.000-07:002009-09-11T15:13:35.493-07:00Post-Freak OutI decided to take action and stop my freak-out before it started.<br />Now, I don't know if this will cure me, I seriously doubt it, but it was definitely smart to get checked for my own peace of mind.<br />I called the doctor and went in for a 4th beta today because I was feeling so nervous about it. I know, I need to relax, but I haven't quite gotten there yet.<br />Today's beta was 1,919. Doubling time was 41.5 hours (averages for numbers in the range I'm in now and the one I was in on Tuesday are: 40.47 & 42.34).<br />This is definitely reassuring, though I'm not ruling out getting nervous again.<br />I can't promise anything, but I do know that having solid numbers at this point (the point at which things started going badly last time), feels good today.Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3189547644431450678.post-13479095919679060152009-09-10T23:06:00.000-07:002009-09-10T23:09:57.512-07:00AnxiousI can't seem to settle down this evening. I'm definitely tired, but also all keyed up.<br />It started mid-morning with feeling anxious and it's ebbed and flowed a bit, but even though I almost fell asleep while watching a movie, I haven't been able to fall asleep yet in my bed- which is completely unlike every other night this week when I've been zonked out by 10:45.<br /><br />I can't decide if my body is freaked out because my mind is freaked out or if there's really something wrong. I want so much for this pregnancy to flourish and be healthy and continue to full term...Busted Tubehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12111014136194033674noreply@blogger.com5