What else? Pregnancy mentioned.

I didn't mean to disappear. It's been a busy few weeks and lately I've been caught up with work and now I'm on the other side of the country for business travel.
For a good week or so I didn't write anything because all I could think about and write about what how nervous and worried and anxious I was feeling, how unsure I was that things might really be okay. I'm still not sure, of course, how can anyone be sure? However, I am feeling much better, largely because of my great appointment with my nurse-midwife on Wednesday. I didn't know if she'd be able to reassure me at all, but not only did her presence & great listening skills help, but she was already planning to do an ultrasound so I got to see the good strong heartbeat again and see that the little tiny embryo had grown over the week since we'd seen the little one last. Everything was looking really good and the midwife said she puts my risk of miscarriage at 2%- it literally doesn't get any better than that!

She also told me I wasn't allowed to worry about this, but I am a little anyway (but really, I feel SO much less worried). The embryo had grown over the 7 days since the last scan, but it measured only 6.4 mm larger than the last week. All the things I read say that embryos should grown 1 mm a day, which would put my little embryo a tiny bit smaller than it should be (less than a mm, but still, nervous me). I knew that if anyone would understand this worry you all would. Is it crazy to worry over a millimeter? Perhaps. Nonetheless, anyone feel like reassuring me on that front?

Aside from that, I'm going to be super busy all week with work and then when I get back early next week I'll have my RE appointment at which point I'll hope to be done with that office for a good long while (they're fantastic, don't get me wrong, but I'll be okay being done, I sure hope I am!) and we'll get to see what's going on inside again!

What weekend?

My business trip started Wednesday afternoon at the end of the work day and the business part will end tomorrow around 5pm. Then it is back to work on Tuesday (I'll have Monday to spend with my mom and grandpa and to fly home). Working straight thru the weekend is tough and my days have been long. However, there are two excellent upsides: I barely have time to worry and I get to meet really interesting people.
I'll also appreciate next weekend all that much more since it will be my only one until the end of October!

Boob Watch Fall 2009 continues: Definitely sore again, though it does come and go a bit. Still fuller and a bit denser and nipple tenderness continues to be present, though not as badly as it was initially (which is really good, cause that HURT!).
Again, who knows... but I do hope.

Traveling

It's been a very, very long day so you'll have to forgive me for my slacker participation in ICLW. I'll be back in full force tomorrow!
After flying into San Francisco I had a white knuckled drive up to Marin County due to the dark, my crappy directions and a rental car that probably will live on in memory as the worst rental car I've experienced in 4+ years of business travel. It has no power door locks and no power windows and it smells like a chemical factory (I think it is just cleaning product, but EWWW! I drove with the window rolled down so I wouldn't be poisoned).
At least today I've been distracted and therefore not as worried. I know there's nothing I can do either way and I know the chances are good that everything's fine. Many of you reminded me that the worry comes with the territory and that's absolutely right. I'm just going to have to deal with it as best I can- sometimes that might be freaking out and asking the internet for help, but hopefully most of the time that will mean taking care of myself and listening to good music, reading good books and enjoying all the good things in life. One day at a time.

Boob Watch Fall 2009: While they were less tender yesterday they were still achy during the night last night and still feel fuller (and veiny!). Today they were off & on tender with slightly more nipple soreness than yesterday. Right now they just feel a little bit fuller than usual. I guess that means the symptoms haven't 'vanished', but it probably also means 'oh right, I'm on progesterone supplements!'. Who knows, just another great mystery of life, I guess.